middle of nowhere

I'm in the corner of "walk" and "don't walk", I'm going in circles in a rotonda... mid-life crisis at 26? geeesshh so i guess i'll only live up to around my 50's.. hahahaha.. naahhh.. "I WILL NOT DIE TODAY" i will live forever and ever and ever...

so why the confusion... hihihi.. i havnt been smoking anything, popping anything.. whatever... everything seem to suck.. hihihi pun meant on that... the word suck.. hahahaha... shhhhhhhh.... except of course my new job which is so far great... which i hope will "suck" hahaha pun again.. hihihi.. kidding kidding kidding.. i am such a duffus.. watever that is

lost in an oblivion of choices, forked-roads, left or right, up or down, in or out, yes or no --- in or out??? why not in and out... as in make up your mind.. in out in out in out... sheeshh.. am i getting a cosmic, virtual orgasm typing those two words alternately... how pathetic...dammit.... is this what i get for abstaining? hahahaha... so where am i?? im not going anywhere with im saying, im not getting anywhere with what im typing... justa stream of consciousness... nothing more nothing less.

in-out, in-out, in-out....INNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.....OUUUUUUUUUUUUT.. wheeeew.... bet u felt that one. dont be shy... sleeptight