Pain Pain come my way

I need pain to come my way. If that's the only way i need to know that i am alive. I have been so numb lately. No feelings, no emotions... Stone-cold who-gives-shit person.

A year ago, after going thru a break up of some sort... coz she just left... and its understood that we're thru, i said for the last the three most abused word.. 1-4-3 yeah u get the point im sure. It went smack to thin air, and amazingly it didn't bother that much. As if nothing happened and i went my own solitary way. Not that i didn't mean it, but it allowed me to realize that it wasn't probably time for that.

geeesh.. i do't have time for that... am i still in the process of healing? or am i already ok? how can i tell if im already over the pain or i just got used to the feeling of loneliness that i cant tell the difference anymore.

Pain, pain come my way,
never leave even for just a day
Little aris can't come out to play
coz he'll be hurting women along the way