WANTED - "DEAD or ALIVE"

"I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you"
- Numb - Linkin Park

had a nice chat with a good friend about not feeling anything... anger, love, fraustration... as usual nothing was resolved considering that it was a very trivial topic and a very subjective one.

but isn't it nice to have a time out from all the emotional strains and baggages that we have? at least once in a while? if it is, then it must be heaven to get rid of all those negative feelings. We then avoid the inconvenience of being emotionally drained renderring us useless because we are preoccupied with heartbreaking thoughts or because we loss sleep over the same thought that no amount of coffee can jerk us to life. hahaha... "a jerk/biatch kept us awake and no amount of coffee can jerk/bitchslap us to alertness after losing sleep" wat a bummer!!!!

are we actually "DEAD" walking around with no emotions at all, feeling nothing? but even more "ALIVE" because we get a (false) sense of freedom.. a perpetual time out from these emotions.

are we "ALIVE" because we carry these emotions with us but actually "DEAD" because the same emotions that make us feel alive render us incapable of living...

an irony or a paradox? or just a reality of this complicated world where our lives are deeply twisted and intertwined with one another making things more complicated. we are social animals... it's our nature.