Deep Brown Eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

"Behind These Hazel Eyes" -Kelly Clarkson

Self destruction is not an option, not anymore. There's too much at stake and it's too early in the "game". My first job after college I screwed 'coz i was screwed!! Now i'm in my first job after grad school and I won't screw it up. Not when I am enjoying every single thing that I do.

The effects of a platonic cum PLUTOnic "whatever" will not distract my focus in laying down the foundation of my future. Selfish as it may seem, the future I am building is not my own alone, but also to the woman - whoever she is or wherever she might be, whether i've already met her or not - who I might spend the rest of my life with (that is if I ever plan to commit)*snort*

I feel much more mature now than before, of course that should be the case, otherwise tumatanda ako ng paurong...

so, i may be torn again, but i can pick up the pieces and put things back together with ease... the advantage of being "there" before.. i know where the pieces go. "to hell and back"... but you'll never see the suffering, the pain... in my chinky deep brown eyes.