Are we clear??...

Crystal... YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH!!! well i can... especially when it's simply understood. Yes, could be pressumptious, i might even be reading between the lines... i never do learn from person to person, but i am a quick study on the same person.

Mixed emotions are just too much to handle. Anger? devastation? disgust? angst? relief? depression? betrayal? each has to be dealt with in different way which when you handle one, will alleviate the others temporarily while aggravating the rest. One time big time, face it head on. All at the same time.. Wait, let's do this rationally like civilized human beings... there's no need to fight... let's not get violent.. NO! let's... ohhh just bring it!!!

Once the smoke clears and the dust settles, i may come out in ruins, huwaaasaak, jaded, hell since people know that i have openly and verbally admitted my feelings and the rest of the story was conveniently left out...once i move on... it seems like i wasnt serious at all. I am never really good at tests like this, if i am actually being tested. So i really dont give a shit if i fail and what people will think.