Good bye....

English - Goodbye (Formal),

German - Tschüss (Informal), Guten Abend (Goodnight), Auf wiedersehen [Owf veedersehen] (informal and friendly), Bis Später (Till later)

Esperanto - Ĝis revido!

Spanish - Adiós (informal), despedida (farewell), Hasta mañana (see you tomorrow, silent 'H'), Hasta la vista (be seeing you, silent 'H'), Hasta luego (see you later, silent 'H').

In latin america: Chau (bye, informal in Argentina and Uruguay), nos vemos (see you later, informal).

Italian - ciao [chow] (informal), arrivederci (ah-ree-vay-dare-chee)

French - adieu (if this is your last time with a person) au revoir (formal, pronounced 'o-revwa') toute à l'heure, à bientot (informal, if you'll be meeting the person anytime soon)

Japanese - Ja ne, Jaa mata (only say this when you know you will be meeting the person again soon),
Sayonara (farewell)

Chinese Mandarin - Zai Jian

Chinese Cantonese - Bai bai, Joi Geen

Korean- Ahn yawng hee kah seh yoh

Arabic, Mauritanian dialect -Wa danakoum li Moulana (literally: I leave you in God's trust)

Arabic classical - Ma Assalama (formal, meaning literally: With peace) Wada an (informal) Ila liqa (only say this when you'll be meeting the person again) Assalam Alikum (meaning May peace be upon you)

Portuguese - Tchau (or Xau) (informal, pronounced like Italian ciao) Adeus (formal) Até amanhã (if you will be seeing the person tomorrow) Até Já (if you will be seeing the person soon that day) Até Logo (if you will be seeing the person later that day)

Russian: Good Bye (formal) = до cвиданиѿ (Da-sveed-DAN-ee-ya);

Tamil - Tata(informal), Sendru-Vaa(formal), Kalambu(Rude) Poyata Varayn(informal, actaully means "I will go and come")

Dutch - Formal: Tot ziens (tot seens), Informal: Doei/Doeg (oe pronounced like in 'good', g=sharp), Mazzel, Zie je later, Groetjes (greetings)

Filipino - paalam (farewell)

Hindi = dont have exactly the same word as 'Bye', but we do say something like Chalta Hu

Urdu = Khuda Hafiz (God Bless you)

Panjabi = Rub Rakha (God Bless you)

Thai = la-gon (GoodBye)

At Last...

it's time to let go... time to be silent... this is the only outlet i have... i neither have time to grieve not cry... there's just too much emotions to actually react, to feel something... no one to talk to, no one to air my grievances to,

"it's sad to realize, that the only person that will make you stop crying, is the very same person that made you cry"

it's even more painful to realize that the person you air your greivances to, is the same person that you grieved for

i'm left with a machine to rant to, to talk to, and still i have to let go... i just can't anymore... life was just sucked out of me... i can't cry... no matter how much i want to, i can't, tears well up but it just wouldn't fall... like a third degree burn... every nerves have been damaged to feel anything... pasong paso...

it's time to heal... letting go is the start... the end of the beginning... the beginning of the end... the end and the beginning... all over again... and now i start back at one... ( or zero.. or the negative)

Walang Kwenta ka!!!!

again, i heard it... a relative thing to say...

i know i tried, that's good enough for me. the world is all about perception, i am not good at it... i can't pretend, i have no poker face, what my heart feels, my emotions can be seen, right thru me, my face, my eyes...

i can't fake it, i can't hide things... i have to explain what's in me for people to understand, but i don't have that luxury and even if i do, i won't...

a lot of people will never understand me... worse judge me... it's ok... it hurts, it saddens me when that happen, but i learned to live with it, but it still stings when it happens... judgements may be true, may be false...

the symbol of judgement is a blindfolded one, to remove what the eye's will see, the perception, yet, not all justice is just. can you imagine judging with your eyes wide open? good luck...

walang kwenta ka!!!
ikaw ang pinakawalang kwentang taong nakilala ko
mabuti't iniwan kita
dahil walang kwenta ka

sarili mo lang iniisip mo,
papano naman ako?
ikaw lang ang tama
walang kwenta ka!!!

tama na, dahil walang kwenta ka
ang kitid ng utak mo,
sarado pa nga yata
sobra- WALANG KWENTA KA!!!

Don't put words in my mouth, this blog isn't about you... this is me as perceived (or maybe this is really me) yes... this is me... all of me.

When your dying....

... and you have someone attached to you, what would you do?

Make the person hate you so (s)he'll leave or make the most out of it?
I choose the former... it's a mean thing to do but for me it's the best way for that person to let go of you... hate then indifference... indifference make you feel nothing, no love, no hate, no emotional hang up... cold, ice-cold, stone-cold.

I don't like seeing people grieving over me, whether for whatever reason, i don't like it. I want to be non-existent, invisible maybe... unseen, unnoticed, ignored.

So there, being too close to me is a bad thing... leaving me is worse... me leaving is worst... i hate the drama of it all... i hate death around me, but i wish that death come to me...

i am ready, it's a celebration of life - to die. i have no reason to be afraid, what i have done in the past have been my choice, my doing and i'm ready to face the consequences. the intent has always been there... in whatever i do... certainly from my point of view it is for the best... end justifies the means?? means justifies the end?? i don't know.

i am ready... no fear... i am asking for it... bring it... give me freedom... this is too much to take.

Dragged

Pulling my weight... dragging my feet...feels like the life force have been sucked out of me... i just feels so drained... burn out?? maybe... hunger? thirst??

Let's get it movin' movin'........

Invisible Barrier

How does one break a barrier? one that no one sees,something existing only the minds, in room of people who determines where you'll be in the next.... what?? 2, 3, 5 years??

an invisible shield, you proceed, exert extra-effort, push as hard as you can but only your vision goes thru, you can see through but can not pass thru...

the challenge excites you... the sight... the possibilities of going thru excites you, coz you see what's in store... at least most of it...the unexpected mistifies you... your adrenaline rushes thru your veins... NITRO... but you're still there... then you see a figure walk thru... hadly breaking a sweat... and now controls the destiny of those left behind.

maybe there's another route... maybe its time to turn around and walk away...

question is, is there really a barrier? or a it all made up by the mind, you see what you want to see... you don't see the path way... or maybe you just don't fit.