Lenten Season

It's done. Lent has begun... figuratively that is... 40 days and 40 nights. i hope it is worth it.. why? why have thee forsaken me...

to thee i offer everything above anything else... for now.

Grand Entrance???

or a graceful exit... blessings are coming left and right yes, a colleague is on her way to be a mom, forseen promotions, anticipated launch, etc etc etc... left and right.. i need some on the center so i get a piece of the action, everything around me nothing falling towards me...

i am such in ingrate noh? all i can think of is bitterness and cant be happy for the blessings i get... well let me see...

Lenten season is coming early to me... gawd, i have such a heavy cross to carry not to mention the burden of shame, embarassment that's coming soon.. so thank you, at least easter sunday will come early to me... so long as i can hump the easter bunny or "bunnies" will have me in the center of their "easter egg hunt" amazing

I get to relax. blah blah blah... im making no sense of this entry... angst... speaking in tongues... graaabeeeee this is just to much to take... ahhhhhhhhh somebody help......

Crossroad....

or a fork? up ahead!!!! unavoidable... tough choices... pride or dedication, ego or utang na loob.

boss ng boss ko was a very supportive man, straight shooter, keeping you on your toes and motivated... a paradox... magaan na mabigat... how?? he puts on the pressure but provides support and guidance.. but he left na.. reassigned by the company

boss ko, simple magdala, im on a long leash... di nagagalit... bahala ka dumiskarte... sa trabaho... mahihiya ka magloko... sa inuman... sige kahit puro kalokohan...

ako? damn... i'm trying to assimilate their skills... yet i fall short... feeling ko laging bitin... but i keep trying... laging may sablay.. havnt accomplished much this year.. much?? there's even no accomplishment to speak of.. for this year...

see.... this is what keeps me looking forward to staying long in my company... ok ang management, solid ang grupo - the south side group... adopted TSG boy...

Now the crossroad... changes are happening... the flipside of history is repeating itself... i really need to think about my decision. no official word... grapevine is what it is for now...

and did i mention.. tension or passion? ahhh... My baby project... from acquisition to implementation.. we all want to see our baby grow... damn if i let go... dragged if dont