Move over..

I always described myself as an epitomy of the characted Jerry Maguire.

Lately, i have thought of the persona of the character of James Bond. Forget how smooth and sleek he operates around women and how he gets them to bed. in that aspect, i wont even come close to his dust... (besides, i prefer and enjoy an on-going one night stand)

Its that defensive character... an emotional weapon... stone-cold, i don't give a damn aura. Treat a lady how a lady should be treated, but screw me, then you are no good as a person, regardless if you are a lady or a gentleman, the last thing you'll get from me is respect. Betray me and I could care less about killing you.

stream of consciousness

Self Evaluation again is here... but there's too much freaking work nobody gets to do it... HR has extended the deadline for the nth time but sh*t knows i-eextend ulit yan.

I submitted mine after the first deadline. well after the first... simply because i had nothing there to put.... I don't seem to have any accomplishment for the year 2006... sobrang nothing major. wtf?? coño.... to think we work 8 to 8 if not 8 to 9 sheeeeshhhhh...

its a really slow year for me this year, despite the preparation for my "baby" shower... which is why everything is a "status report" not an accomplishment 'coz all that i have done this year is a pre-requesite of a major accomplishment... for 2007...

well, i guess it will all depend on my boss... in any case anyway...that's always the case.

for bonuses, increases, promotions... bahala na... i do what i do... to the best that i can do... with my best still raw and can be developed to be best amongst the best... simple lang...

as long as i can make a contribution that will make a difference in the lives of the associates of my company...that will affect their family... in a good way... then i have done my share.

No Need...

... to explain yourself... to anyone... to whoever.

Your enemies won't believe it, your friends don't need it.
Forget it... there's just no need.

Drinking and Learning

I always believed that there is value in having drinks with the bosses. The open discussion and wento really is a big source of insights.

Last night, I was in Shops @ Serendra having a few beers with our managers and i learned the etymology of some tagalog words.

APIR - high five or UP HERE!!! see where I am going? with the dialects and intonations inate in Filipinos, the word APIR (Up here) evolved.

SIRIT - Share it!!! hahahaha... i give up share it!!!

Amazing... well gays are well know to invent slangs and catchy words... that is of course an entirely different story... babush

Uncertainties if Life

a big IF, that's what life is all about. LIFE... who knows what's going to happen. changes seem to happen left and right, up and down, front and back... all we can do is prepare, wait then adapt. To what life has got to offer.

People come and go... friends, colleagues, partners, spouses (yes, even spouses). In different shapes and sizes, the unexpected drops down from the heavens and there's nothing we can do about it.

Changes so to speak are neither good nor bad, its how we take it which sets us apart from the whiners who rants and nags about how bad or how much suffering they have to endure 'coz of such changes... suck it up... that's the only thing we can do... and move on. Otherwise leave... if you can avoid it...LEAVE... turn your back and walk away. Never to be seen again.

Make the change to make adapting easier, as the cliche' goes... but isn't there enough changes to go around? disrupting a life that is peaceful and content.

Am I making any sense at all? or I have just joined the very people I detest, the whiners, who think other's battle with changes is a mediocrity compared to theirs... is my war against these changes worse than anyone I know? Its the same world, the same country, same office and same uncertain life that we have... selfish...

IF... that's LIFE, IF in the middle... right in its midst, such uncertainty, much distress... i wanna break free.. the rebel in me is struggling to come out from the repression of being powerless brought about by the need to live up to other people's expectation.

Sad but true, we live by other people's expectation and that's no IF.