HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN..... 10 ways or...

the fastest time possible... unknown to mankind!!!!

1. In a bar or resto, rub his legs with your toes and if he asks "are you flirting with me?", answer him with a question "why? yo do't like it? then proceed to no. 2

2. Kiss Him passionately..... then ignore him the next time you see him (This works well when this happens in your car)

3. Tell him you are beginning to like him... and find out how he really feels for you. 10 points if he admits liking you. Grand slam points if he's stupid and say's he loves you... then tell him, "It is not my intention to hurt you, but...."

4. Join him for a movie when he invites you... then make all the excuses when he invites you again.. then invite him when you are going to watch a movie with all your girl friends after jumping up and down in excitement upon reading that your friends are going with you to watch a movie that he wanted to watch with you. (He has to know that you organized the gimik and he must be there when you get confirmation or you can fake reading a text message and do the jumping.) Bonus: Tell him, i invited you first naman eh... after knowing all the details.

5. Ask for help in work, school paper or anything, especially if he's a kinda smart guy, tell him you'll give him you're draft so he can take a look... THEN let your "ex" whose equally smart or even smarter to check your paper. REMEMBER: he has to know, whether from you or from someone else

6. When he begins ingoring you and seem picking up on what you're doing, flirt, touch his shoulder and inncently ask "why are you ignoring him" (delivery is important here, hyper-extend syllables with a matching pout and swaying of the hips and neck)... once you reel him back in, ignore him again.

7. ASk him to accompany you in the office when you have overtime. so you two can play hanky panky. Kiss him again and this time straddle him, arms around his neck and legs around his waist. Have him feel the waist band of your thongs. Dominate him.. it's your office after all.... then tell him that " the kiss was something to me, but it's just that, it is not my intention to hurt you..." (Tell him days after you start ignoring him again)

8. Flirt with someone he knows... and tell him "ohhh he's a very good friend of mine"

9. Ask him for flowers, ask him for favors, ask him anything.. remember all you have to do is ask... then do the same to the friend he knows, in front of him.

10. Find a new guy to play with on the palm of your fingers. BONUS points if you get to the guy friend he knows.

Step Back....

look at yourself in the mirror...

I feel sad when i hear friends being dumped, taken for granted by their partners. When you see them giving their best for the relationship, but being short-changed when it comes to the affection they deserve. It's infuriating to be so helpless not being able to do something to alleviate the pain my friends are going thru... since I am in the same boat as they are. But the funny thing is i am not even in a relationship. ahh yes.. a platonic cum plutonic one as clarified.

I always share an advice of try only to what will keep you sane and never go beyond self-destruction. DOn't even say goodbye, turn around and walk away... burn the bridge... construct it again later. DEspite being more difficult, its more pallatable to the soul and make the design better, stronger. But nobody listens... including myself...

so i look at myself in the mirror in shame... i give tough advice, i project a tough outer shell... but cant even walk away... in time.... in time...

PDG Gimik

As i said, pictures of the recent PDG party in Cubao will follow soon. Here are some of the pics.

Kats, Eunice, Glenna

France, Carmina, Roan w/ the "nganga"

Carmina, Kats, Roan, Sir Gutz

Lalaine, Nikki, Glenna, Eunice


Hopefully this becomes a monthly get together for the team as planned, despite marketing services and Customer Relations composed of Eunice, Kats, Lalaine and Carmina will be tranferring to a different office but in the same building.

AND of course, sana sa mas malapit na lugar at hindi na sa Cubao kasi ang traffic traffic.. nakuuuu.. oh well, twas fun though... wohoooooo

SWEATSHOP!!!!

Back to sweating... running... exercising... gosh.. it's been i while since i went up and down a flight of stairs, 22nd to 1st and back up to be exact. Amazingly, despite smoking half a pack a day, i was able to run continuously non-stop at the same pace i usually do, with a 5-pound ankle weights in each leg hah!!! I just had to rest halfway to rest my legs which were giving up on me.... oh my.. old age??? geeeesh..

Now to weight training, its been a year since i last went to the gym, or almost, clost to a year. my account has been terminated in fitness first. tsk tsk.. good thing there's gold's gym in the basement of my office and we got a special promo to enroll. Despite the acess being limited, in terms of frequency, we have total access to all the facilities twice a week. That's good enough, considering how buy i am. 2x a week in the gym is not that bad. hahaha.. time to prepare my program... oh and my former instructor is in Gold's.. how great is that. now someone will be motivating me... PUSH!!! LAST ONE!!! ALL YOURS!!!! aaaaarrrgghhhhhh

Barbecue Party

After out team building last May, we set a monthly team building for our department. Project Development Group. The first was held last Friday, July 15, 2005 in Anton's place. Who was there... Anton and Iris, Sir Gutz, Kats, Roanne, Carmina, Eunice, Glenna, Lalaine, Nikki, Romy, Jong, Caloy, Alex and Dotty, Mabi, joel, Sir Loy and odette...Jan and haydee...marc... did i miss anyone???

On the way, we road with Kats, and of course i am the driver... with Sir gutz, roan and carmina... Less than a minute in the car, we were in chaos... because of some CD that wasn't supposed to be seen or touched.. hahaha.. Kats, if you weren't so defensive di ka kinulit.

There was great food. but the camaraderie was better. There will never be a time in a party where someone or at least a pair or more will be grilled, toasted and be on fire. I was planning not to drink at all that night. But i did, but only a few glasses of beer - 2 - and a glass of scotch. That's it. the reason i so i dont get too kulit and maintain a low profile, but still i was grilled. It was so embarrassing and dyahe, having everyone pick on you, including your manager and the VP plus all the people around. while the other focal point of the grilling was merrily taunting me and daring me to an extent that i just couldnt go with the flow because of my shyness and discomfort.

Alaskado tuloy ako. "Mahina", "Wala ka pala Aris" "Paano tayo makabili ng lupa".. hahaha... as in olats... but hindi ako napipikon.. I remember being able to get back at some point.

at some point in the asaran....
GIRL - "hindi ka pa nga nakakafirst base, humihirit ka na.. blah blah blah"
Crowd - wooohhhh... (jeering).. hahaha.. Aris patay ka..tsk tsk tsk
ME - "WAIT - take note.. "HINDI PA" hindi "PA" ako nakakafirst base

to which every one wnet bonkers and girl shyed away.. hahaha.. some of my few golden moments of return of the comeback.. the night was so fun...

There was a post that soon became the center of attraction - with Mabi, Joel taking the lead.

Pics to follow

I dare not!!!

I used to play this game so cooly... smooth and detached. No remorse, no regret, no emotion. i can take the most out of anything all for my own self gratification and interest, justifying my conscience with the "consensus" nature of the deed. No deceit, no lies, straight forward, all my cards on the table.

So what's wrong with me. Am i now being short-change? tables turned? doze of my own medicine? i think not. i beg to disagree... to a certain extent. but yes \, a qualified yes. Romance is such a deadly two edge knife cutting both ways, hurting the person who holds on tighter and harder more and more, the tighter and harder they "grip". Eventually the pain is too much too bear and you let go... and the scar and the memories of the pain make you take it out on the next person that comes along.. maybe... unfair isn't it? is that the balance of life? or the degradation of civilization... of sanity... of decency.

Anything before but not during or after... anything from then is now during or even after which means slowly im losing your importance in my life, im now confused if this is just for the sake of the challenge or simply matter of pride or maybe just to get away with murder of the worst kind.. leaving someone emotionally dead and physically alive...been there, over and over again... I will not die today!!! not anymore... not ever... not for you... not for anyone... play your game.. im a quick study... no one beats me in anything that i put my mind into. I am the master of my destiny... ill be a great man... i'll conquer myself and no one will....

My Devil's own

Hell is empty, all the devils are here - William Shakespeare

Was that the devil whispering in my ear this am? I was sound asleep after 6 bottles of beer last night and not having dinner. But when i got home at around 11 (early in today's gimik standard, coz i have to work u know) i had a hearty meal of rice, kare-kare and sinigang na baboy.. wohoooo.. then slept... wow, nightmare waiting to happen. Got awaken by a voice whispering at the back of my head. I was so scared shit i didnt get up to pee. Aside from the fact that i have a throbbing head ache going.. until now i just couldnt get up... so when i finally woke up again to get ready for work... man i was so swollen i think i pee'd for 3 minutes... hate to say i was off target coz the projectile was pointing upward i had to keep on adjusting as my bladder emptied.

well...the voice at the back of my head... mysterious...hmmm

So it begins....

Don't ask me why, but i just watched Batman begins last night. hmmm... steady movie, with a nice twist towards the end of the movie. WTF??? how come i missed that? i forgot all about Liam Neeson's character, Ducard, i did't see the twist coming. Shucks.. i must have gotten lost with all the "James Bond Begins" gadget and stuff...

Well, have to say that Katie Holmes is still cute as ever, though her role required her to remove that "pa-tweetums" Dawson's Creek facial expression where she failed miserably. But none the less her face is so angelic and adorable i don't mind. Especially in the last scenes of the ending where she kissed Bruce Wayne, the intensity on her body language makes me reminisce of her kiss with Dawson or Pacey for that matter. Where her lips curl to the left side of her face while she moves towards the guy.. soo close she looks up with her eyeballs.. and during the kiss itself her eyes shut tight, forehead frowning, as she lifts both shoulders while touching her partners left cheek with her right hand. That for me is an intense five seconds of the movie better than the five minute or so car chase scene.

Quarter Pounder

My first 3 months, a quarter year with CII. Safe to say everything is going well... at least in terms of interpersonal relationships with officmates and OJT's.

First week, i was exposed to the kakooooolitan of Sir Gutz and Sir Loy. I thought Sir Gutz was makulit na, nakuuuu Sir Loy was even more makulit. hahaha.. felt right at home...

First drinking was with Romy and Jong (who happened to be a neighbor in Better Living). Found out about BNB, a "used to be" executive lounge of ALI officers now open to public. Quiet place with affordable beer and value for money pulutan. Not bad.

Jammed with the in-house gang named "Kasmuts"... geez don't ask me what it means... their a bunch of crazy, funny, partying bunch of people with diverse or lemme say a wide range of age bracket, bonded by the need to relax, unwind, let loose and of course a strong bond of friendship not to mention a malicious, mischievious childishness inate in all of them. They are Jan, Lalaine, Kats, Roanne, Carmina, Joel, Chris, Anton, Romy, Kiko and Jong... now did i miss anyone or i included someone... pardon me for the mistake. A tightly knitted group, as described by sir Gutz to me. First time i had drinks with them was on Irene and Kats' joint celebration in Dencio's in Paseo Center. (My latest drinking station pero solid BISTRO 110 pa din)

There are really a lot of hilarious experience in the past 3 months... with of course some bumps along the way. A recent boboo on sending out emails, pikunan with officemate but its all part of the fun. i guess i have more to write about in my experience in CII... not to mention the team building last May.

Final words... definitely a happy meal... isa ngang Happy Quarter pounder meal... upsize it please... Big size me!!!!

Ice cold and blue

Freezing point to make your nerves numb, to be lifeless on whatever pain life deals you. The twist and turn which we hope evolve within the nerve endings of out body and torniquet itself to dense, pack of nerves with no sensation.


How do you cool your lips
After a summer's kiss
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare
How do you block the sound of a voice
You'd know anywhere
(chorus)

Oh I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive

How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you've found a friend
How do you teach your heart it's a crime
To fall in love again

Oh you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive

What is essential....

...is invisible to the naked eye

War of the worlds would easily be discounted to have the most horrible ending of the year, the most anti-climatic movie of the year and now i am making an understatement... of the year!!!

It also has the most... uhmmm... shall i say "chopsuey" of a plot.. fathering issue, traumatized kid issue, rebellous teenage issue.. that makes you forget that there are tripods annihilating the humans as the dominant specie of this planet.

But, then again, let's go beyond the movie and to reality. When a war does come up,a man-made war... the questions is - Where will you be? Who will you be with? Who will you protect? or will you just save yourself.

Have we earned the right to survive? in a natural way? same way the movie depicted, in a non-fiction visual medium, a scientific survival ending in a religious underlying plot. Can the smallest, microscopic organism save us... when were not going up against tripods firing beams of light disintegrating our bodies but not our clothes, plunging metal needle hoses in our body sucking our blood out and spraying it back on our land? when what we're up against is the same microscopic, odorless, colorless substance that are released in subways, train stations, densely populated areas. Invisble to the naked.. and its only half of what is essential!!!

Morgan Freeman was the narrator when the movie started, u'll hear his voice when the movie ends... He played God in a comedy film once... is it the movie effects, the cinematography or the lousy ending that makes War of the World worth watching...

Paalam mga bata....

A simple true or false answer!!! and nobody can give a straight answer. Benefit of the doubt... and here's what u'll get "I'm going thru a difficult stage...blah blah blah... yakity yakity... yak yak yak yaddah yaddah yaddah... u deserve someone better"

achoooo... *sniffle* (itch itch itch) damn, im so allergic to bullshit!!!!

Goodbye to you - Michelle Branch

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star